trust

I keep wavering between unschooling, eclectic schooling, partly un schooling and using work books etc.. to teach the kids what they need and want to be learning. It is hard for me to completely trust that they will learn what they need to learn in their own time as they choose to. I know and believe that the child learns better when he is involved in the learning process and has a chance to choose what he would like to be studying. It is still hard for me to let go and just be a facilitator on their education, and just trust that they will be fine. :) I do see better results when they choose what they want to be learning any given day. F is interested in lots of different things but sometimes I feel that he is not doing all that she should be doing to satisfy the regulations, but then we will have a few really good 'learning' weeks where he is doing math, reading up a storm, researching on line, writing etc... so I start to feel better... but then we will have a lull for a while where I have to put a math work book in front of him and tell him to do it, or else :). We are talking to him more and explaining to him that he has a voice in his education. Honestly at times life gets in the way of what they'd like to do... the zoo is not so much fun when its pouring rain out or in 20 degree weather...laundry needs to be done, house needs to be cleaned etc etc.... so I have to work at this whole combination unschooling, eclectic learning, balancing educating 3 children with my time for me... which I hardly never get.

I do have those rare days when I think hmmm it would be soo much easier to send them to school, but those moments are rare and disappear as soon as I see the kids playing together, F reading to them, playing Monopoly together, building Legos, seeing F doing the USA puzzle with A and asking her which state is which and her getting the answers right, them getting excited about what the day will bring because WE get to decide how are days will go, not be under a rigid school schedule...

I know that my decision to home school them is the right one and will never go back to the way things were.

I think making a list fo the things we do get accomplished will bring me a long way in realaxing my worries about what we aren't getting done.
I will work on it and post here every few days so I can keep track.